The past few days I have dedicated more time than usual to meditate. Not necessarily because it is the start of a New Year, but more so because I have been overwhelmed with a feeling that the different puzzle pieces of my life are being moved at a divine pace to form a picture that is far from what I expected. I have never enjoyed feeling like I am not in control. That being said I must admit the decisions and moments in my life that every fiber of my being tells me are right, have always been Divinely guided and inspired. My lived experience proves that there truly is something to the expression ” Let Go And Let God”.
So I am letting go—- or at least I am trying to. Each day the picture comes into focus a bit more, and while my mind is continually asking “Wait, are you sure—-this is not what I had planned”, my spirit is gently whispering “Yes, this is it. This is exactly how it should be. This is it——”. Eventually those two voices merged together and I was left siting with myself, knowing that the picture might not be exactly what I had planned as a child, but it is exactly what my spirit planned with the Divine before I took my first breath. Providence always wins——always.
Thinking about 2011 (in particular the last 6 months) in retrospect, I believe wholeheartedly that the past year was my year of preparation. Life worked on me in 2011—- HARD. When the year started I was far from ready. I was nowhere near ready to step into what the Divine KNEW was quickly approaching. Thankfully the spirit of life got its hands on me before its destiny made her appearance. I was stretched, molded, and ultimately transformed. Painful? At times. Uncomfortable? Absolutely. Necessary? Positively. By the time all was said and done, I was ready. When my career path became clear, I was ready. When my soulmate appeared in my life, I was ready. Constantly I was overwhelmed with feelings of dejavu and serendipity. I was exactly the person I needed to be to fully embrace my destiny—-and it felt good.
My gut instinct tells me that 2012 is going to be my launch year in many of the different areas of my life. Honestly I am so excited to see how the story unfolds. I don’t really believe in resolutions, so I didn’t make any. I did, however, make one promise to myself. I will always strive to be a good steward of the blessings that manifest for me.
Happy New Year!